Even though the pre-training and the schedule may have seemed heavy and burdensome, my thought was that it was needed. I needed the pre-training. I was able to see how my daily living doesn’t match the standard of a normal Christian believer, I have too many flaws in the practical side of things, and I found myself breaking more than half the rules presented in the information manual.
But I am grateful to the Lord for putting me in such a place. There are about 300 million people in the US and there about 300 trainees here so there is a one in a million chance to be here; and God called ME (Gal. 1:15).
One of the many things that impressed was the matter that we are not our own. Wow, my life is not my own. The Lord shed and poured out His blood to purchase me. Because of this, He has the total right to do whatever He wants with me. I was bought with a price, this entitles me to be a salve.
He can, therefore, demand that we consecrate ourselves to Him. I cannot give my life to Him based on my feelings, thoughts, or emotions. This has really exposed me because I don’t realize enough what the Lord has done to get me where I’m at. I don’t give the Lord the ground to restrict or direct my life.
But there is a motive behind our giving ourselves to Him, and that is LOVE. My prayer to God is to keep touching me with His love so I can give myself to Him out of love. The Lord doesn’t want inanimate objects. He has purchased living persons that have affections and a will.
He may have the right to do what He wants but we may not have the heart to let Him do so. This is where God’s love comes in. When God’s love reaches us, it constrains us (2 Cor. 5:14-15). By this we are led to become PRISONERS of His love. This will then enable us to WILLINGLY consecrate ourselves to Him. I was really touched by this.
He paid a price for me and there is no way for me to pay Him back; there will never be a way to pay Him back. Me being here in this Bible college will not pay Him back. He had such compassion toward us that He gave His life for us. WHY SHOULDN’T WE GIVE OURSELVES TO HIM?
I come short of this, I don’t have this in my being. So my prayer to the Lord is just for Him to come in as a tide of love that I would be constrained!
Out of all the classes and fellowships that I’ve been apart of this was one of the highlights. Keep praying for me guys!
Sharing from R.J.D (a trainee in FTTA) from his enjoyment in the first week or so in the training. Amen, we pray for all the trainees!